5 things to do after your boudoir session

5 Things to do after your boudoir session : 

  1. STARE AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR YOU FINE ASS BABE 😘
  2. Call your best friend and tell them how absolutely AMAZING and RELAXED you feel. ❤
  3. Look at the sky, close your eyes, cry a little, for every tear shed is a RELEASE OF ANY NEGATIVITY YOU CARRY, ESPECIALLY ANY NEGATIVITY YOU BROUGHT ON YOURSELF. ❤ ❤
  4. Say these affirmations ” I AM WORTHY. I AM BEAUTIFUL. I AM VALUABLE AS I AM. I DESERVE THE UTMOST KINDNESS TO MYSELF LIKE I GIVE TO OTHERS. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN MORE THAN ENOUGH.” ❤ ❤
  5. Treat yourself to a date! Either by yourself BECAUSE YOU ARE A BAD BITCH, or with a friend or your significant other. ❤

AND A BONUS : SCREAM “I JUST DID THAT! I CAN’T BELIEVE I JUST DID THAT!” ❤❤❤.Boudoir sessions are so very delicate because much like having an intimate relationship for the first time, taking your clothes off, piece by piece, in front of new eyes feels like a fucking GAMBLE, because we do not know how this new person will react. Revealing parts of ourselves slowly, that we don’t usually show to others is fucking scary. But, I HOPE that when you get to my studio, you feel a bit of relief knowing that your body will NOT BE LOOKED DOWN UPON, BUT FUCKING CELEBRATED FOR THE GLORIOUS CREATION THAT IT IS. ❤ Without your body you wouldn’t be able to do the things that scare the living shit out of you or do the things that make you feel love, excitement, and joy. ❤.So, remember to treat your body like the TREASURED BEING THAT YOU ARE. ❤.And don’t forget to drink some water, you need that shit. 

sullivan wedding 8.21.20

Searles Castle, Windham NH

first came love then came marriage then came baby!

I am so lucky in this life to be able to photograph two people in love and then again when the same two people grow their families! Congrats to S + S! You will both be wonderful parents! <3 Also, if you walk the Audobon Society trails in Auburn, NH, have you walked the whole trail or do you happen to go maybe half way and turn around like I do? <3

Apple Blossoms

THE APPLE BLOSSOMS AT MACK’S APPLES IN LONDONDERRY, NH WERE JUST INCREDIBLY PERFECT THIS YEAR!

NEOOOOOON

I, honestly, fucking LOOOOOVE these neon sessions. I love how creative and fun they are and they all come out differently! So, I decided to do a couple selfies. <3

I have been doing my best to learn..

Y’all I have learned SO much about myself recently and one of the things I STRUGGLE with the most is putting effort in. I’m not sure if it is from being forgetful, or feeling stuck or both. I am forgetful because I have anxiety and depression (with maybe some dissociative tendencies). How I feel stuck is honestly, as a parent which is the biggest part of my life. I feel like I can’t do anything because I have kids. Who is going to watch them? What is the purpose of trying to get a second job or opening up my weekdays for sessions when I have no coverage? Or with just the simple fact of having to get them ready just to go somewhere. Not only am I limiting myself but I am limiting my kids. There is ALSO a huge fear of them being kidnapped while I am with them or something happening to me while we are out.

.And then I have the questions and thoughts of “am I using this as a crutch?” “everyone already knows that I keep to myself” “why doesn’t anyone ever ask for my help?” “does this make me a bad person?” ALL VALID QUESTIONS THAT DESERVE VALID AND TRUTHFUL ANSWERS. .I do use it as a crutch because I am scared to put myself out there.Just because “everyone knows that I keep to myself” doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t be more active in reaching out to those I love most.No one is asking because they either know that I can’t help them or maybe no one needs my help.It only makes me a bad person when I KNOWINGLY IGNORE THE NEEDS OF THOSE AROUND ME. Which I have done.

.Mental health is not one sided. It is also a constant battle. it is also my crutch. It is a never ending cycle of thoughts, doubts, fears, and insecurity. IT is also not a fucking joke. I wish I was more like the people around me who literally get so much done while being parents, full time workers, great friends. There is a thin line FOR ME between my mental health and my will to not move forward. There are days when it really is my mental health, but there are days when it really isn’t and I need to do better. I DESERVE TO DO BETTER.

we planted a seed!

We have been trying to successfully grow a plant for the last five years. I do NOT have a green thumb but we try and try. This year we have succeeded! Here is our little beauty. <3