So, for MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE, I have been told I look just like my dad. Literally, like copy and paste. In turn, I have been told I look just like my Nana, my father’s mother. Which, as I child, I really did look just like her. Genetics are fucking amazing! I love studying our family trees and see how all of us look so much alike. Anyway, back in August, I buzzed all of my hair off and now I look even more like my dad. I have always wanted to chop it all off, well for the last 10 or so years. I wanted to do it years ago, when I found out that my mother was going to go through chemo. I watched her shave her head and told her that I would as well do it with her. There was NO REASON for her to go through it alone, and in her motherly fashion (like most mothers) she told me not to do it. “Don’t cut your hair off for me, it is too pretty to do so”.
I wish I did it then. I wish I could have been brave enough to go through with it and surprise her and show her how much I love her. Just over 8 years after she passed, I finally shaved it off. At first, I kept some at the top of my head so I didn’t have to face my fear of looking just like my dad, but it didn’t sit right with me. Less than 24 hours later, I completely buzzed it off. Just because I look like my dad doesn’t make me masculine or less pretty. I was ALWAYS so afraid to look like a man, because pretty girls are the ones who get married and are successful. Y’ALL THAT SHIT IS FAR FROM TRUE. It took me shaving my fucking head to see that I am beautiful NO MATTER THE CIRCUMSTANCES. I do not need to attach my beauty to something. MY BODY AS A WHOLE IS BEAUTIFUL I AM ENOUGH. I AM WORTHY.
DO THE SHIT THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. DO THE SHIT THAT SCARES YOU THE MOST. DO THE SHIT THAT WILL MAKE YOUR HEART SOAR! DO THE SHIT THAT WILL MAKE YOU, YOU! EXPERIENCE THIS FUCKING LIFE. AND DO IT WITH LOVE, KINDNESS, AND RESPECT FOR YOURSELF + OTHERS. <3
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